I'm Ghast the zombie running this site. I'm a self-taught digital illustrator, though I like to branch out, and I have an interest in the filthy, the grimy, the horrific, and the perverse. Art is my biggest passion and something I've dedicated myself to since I was 8.

I love alternative things like punk, goth, metal, emo, etc and I strongly believe all things need more leather, latex, and spikes. I've been into horror, gore, and dark things all my life, hell I was watching happy tree friends in elementary school and had a gore blog in high school, basically i've always been kind of an edgy faggot. None of this stemmed from some desire to be transgressive, I've just liked that I like and my work is masturbatory in nature.

That said I believe the world needs more blood, sex, vomit, dirt, vulgarity, kink, strangeness, and fetishism and that is part of my desire and hopes with my work and is why I self ascribe as a filth artist, I'm into rapeplay and have a gore fetish the shit I make is indecent. These days the world is so sanitized and consumable, sex is bad, fetish is bad, you have "serial killer vibes" for enjoying dark things and I can't fucking stand it, especially as a gay man with an interest in queer history. Even many of the people who may call themselves queers act like total squares telling people who wear pup masks or wave the leather pride flag that they're "giving gay people a bad name".

There's a quote from Kid Congo Powers of The Cramps, Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds, and currently the Pink Monkey birds that talks about being in a band and yet still resonates with me:

For me, the whole art of being a band—and I do think it's an art—is to create a whole world, a whole language, that is every aspect. The Gun Club, we kind of made it up as we went along, but what I learned from The Cramps and Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds is that they created a whole uncompromising world, and it's all kind of sprung out of that. You want to communicate with people, and I think through all aesthetics—artwork, the look, and music—you get to keep your world, and you get to let people enter your world and live in your world with you.

My internal world is one that scrapes and scratches against the larger society around it, not intentionally at first but just by being. This website and my art is me carving out a space in the world for myself to create what I want and be sincere to myself, and any who may find themselves enamored with the same obscenities or have any sort of interest in things strange and weird are invited to be here! Honestly even the people who think I'm a freak that needs therapy are invited because it's funny.

Been a little while since I updated the Now section so I figured I might as well. I also rewrote my about again and I will likely rewrite it again later, not happy with it but it's a bit better now I think, definitely will do a few more writing attempts as I work on the V3 later. Honestly it was written with the V3 in mind which is why some info is now missing from it lol.

So what have I been up to? Honestly not much. I've been dealing with stomach pain so I finally set up a doctor's appointment for that, I'm still working on finishing this anatomy course, and I still need to get shit set up for taking commissions. The thing I'm working on with friends was put on hold but should be getting back into motion sometime soon. Haven't really spent too much time focusing on learning coding in a while but I've learned a bit more about CSS lately just by looking at other people's sites.

Honestly I feel like I've been doing very for the past few months and it's been bothering me like crazy I need to work on things more. Figure out what's in my way and get shit done. I don't know not much to say that I'm doing at the moment just kind of rotting.

Will rewrite this section eventually

I guess this is a thing I've seen on other sites so maybe I should write one as well. I started this site back in 2017 originally as basically a wiki for all of my original characters, Toyhouse is nice for what it is but leaves a lot to be desired and all the alternatives suck worse, so making my own site seemed like the best option even if when I started it I didn't know how to code for the longest time. Originally the intention was to keep this site fairly minimalist focusing entirely on getting shit filled out and worrying about making it look good later and I created a second site for where I could be indulgent and put whatever, but as I was looking at that second site I went "actually no I want my art website to look cool too" and as I've made my art website cooler I realized trying to code two seperate sites is too much for me, one larger site is better, so here we are.

Some of my desire is fueled by having been on the internet since 2008, I miss the customizability that's degraded over time, a site with code is very customizable. I consider art to be an extension of my self-expression like the clothes I wear and so my website is also like that, a sorta virtual house where you can see my Ghostface figurines and coffin shaped coaster. It also means no matter what happens on other sites I've still got here and honestly these days I prefer here than going on other sites, the bluesky link on the side is honestly just there to put something there, I hate using bluesky. Though I don't put my whole stock in neocities after all something could possibly happen to it and then I'd have to find a new place always be ready for possibilities like that yknow? Basically the only social you'll really see me active on is a fediverse instance run by one of my friends.

I think the biggest push to having my own site is simply that there is no good art posting website, don't try to recommend me one I've tried several, deviantart, artfol, inkblot, cara, fucking buzzly, unvale, characterhub, refsheet, instagram (gags), you get the idea. Closest that I've liked is sheezy and I think sheezy has potential but it's still not quite there you know? It really seemed like the only way I could post my art in a way I truly like is on my own website. Another thing too is that many of these sites don't allow adult content or have restrictions on them and I am a normal adult man who likes gore and porn so that immediately detracts for me. I hope over time more artists make good personal sites, with RSS feeds that I can follow, please get an RSS feed.