I'm Sullivan, also known as Ghast online, I'm a filth artist and zombie with a fixation on alternative aesthetics such as punk, emo, and industrial and a perversion for gore and horror. I specialize in digital illustration, though have a desire to branch out, and have been drawing most of my life, art is something I've dedicated myself to ever since I joined deviantart when I was 8. I'm entirely self taught via stuff I find online and observe and I'm still constantly learning and working to improve my art both technically and emotionally. I use he/it pronouns, my current tablet is an XP-Pen Star 06, and I primarily use Clip Studio Paint, and MSPaint.

I've always loved horror and gore, from watching horror movies with my family in elementary school, to watching higurashi in middle school, to having a gore blog on tumblr in high school. I consider this love as core to my being as my love of art, that is to say more vital than "being human" and influences my being a zombie. I've always been kind of an edgy faggot but it doesn't stem from a desire to be transgressive, but simply just liking what I like, all art is political but my intent with my work is masturbatory.

That said I do believe the world needs more blood, sex, grunge, vomit, kink and fetishism and that is part of my desire to make the art I want to make. My love of art is number 1 and what I obsess over, I love weird art, I love grime and dirt and filth, the trash, the ugly, the sharp, the pointy, the ambiguous, discomforting, and vulgar. And that goes with being a gay man who realized when he was 15 he liked rapeplay and gore as fetishes, who has an interest in queer history, who loves the alternative and horror, I love leather, latex, chains, collars, spikes, and BDSM. The world is so sanitized, so consumable, sex is bad, fetishes are bad, you have "serial killer vibes" if you enjoy dark things, masochism is tolerable but sadism is evil, even many who may call themselves queers though act as square as can be say you're giving gays a bad look if you wave the leather pride flag, a flag that's existed since 1989.

There's a quote I read recently from Kid Congo Powers of The Cramps, Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds, and currently the Pink Monkey Birds, it talks about being in a band which is different than what I do and yet it really resonates with me:

For me, the whole art of being a band—and I do think it's an art—is to create a whole world, a whole language, that is every aspect. The Gun Club, we kind of made it up as we went along, but what I learned from The Cramps and Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds is that they created a whole uncompromising world, and it's all kind of sprung out of that. You want to communicate with people, and I think through all aesthetics—artwork, the look, and music—you get to keep your world, and you get to let people enter your world and live in your world with you.

With my art I am expressing my own internal world, when you look at it you are seeing that world, one that scrapes and scratches against the larger society around it, not intentionally at first but just by being. This website and my art is me carving out a space in the world for myself to be authentic and sincere to myself, and any who may find themselves as enamoured with the same obscenities or are just weird or like art are invited to be here! Honestly even the people who think I'm a freak that needs therapy are invited because it's funny, I am a freak thank you for noticing.

Working on some things behind the scenes with friends which I'm excited about and itching to share, though we won't be ready for a while. I'm also closer than ever to getting commissions set up just gotta do some more things. Not sure if I'm gonna go with my original planned prices of like $50 given that I currently have more freetime since I'm unemployed again and so I may lower it to maybe $40 or something idk we'll see.

Currently been trying to catch up with my objectober stuff with art and then get back to regular practice, like I said though working on things behind the scenes with friends so that's been taking some of my attention. Still learning more coding, same reasons as before of wanting to make video games but now the extra motivation of again the thing I'm working on with friends, which is why I'm now learning the programming language crystal as well.

Despite rewriting my about now, I'm already planning on rewriting it again because I'd like to redesign quite a few pages on my website including this one, though I need to learn javascript and such. Basically kind of overhaul parts of it to look better and function better. So keep in mind everything here is temporary, I just felt I should start writing better descriptions of myself, my work, and intentions, because well again the thing I'm working on with friends got me thinking about the writing and descriptions on my website haha.

Will rewrite this section eventually

I guess this is a thing I've seen on other sites so maybe I should write one as well. I started this site back in 2017 originally as basically a wiki for all of my original characters, Toyhouse is nice for what it is but leaves a lot to be desired and all the alternatives suck worse, so making my own site seemed like the best option even if when I started it I didn't know how to code for the longest time. Originally the intention was to keep this site fairly minimalist focusing entirely on getting shit filled out and worrying about making it look good later and I created a second site for where I could be indulgent and put whatever, but as I was looking at that second site I went "actually no I want my art website to look cool too" and as I've made my art website cooler I realized trying to code two seperate sites is too much for me, one larger site is better, so here we are.

Some of my desire is fueled by having been on the internet since 2008, I miss the customizability that's degraded over time, a site with code is very customizable. I consider art to be an extension of my self-expression like the clothes I wear and so my website is also like that, a sorta virtual house where you can see my Ghostface figurines and coffin shaped coaster. It also means no matter what happens on other sites I've still got here and honestly these days I prefer here than going on other sites, the bluesky link on the side is honestly just there to put something there, I hate using bluesky. Though I don't put my whole stock in neocities after all something could possibly happen to it and then I'd have to find a new place always be ready for possibilities like that yknow? Basically the only social you'll really see me active on is a fediverse instance run by one of my friends.

I think the biggest push to having my own site is simply that there is no good art posting website, don't try to recommend me one I've tried several, deviantart, artfol, inkblot, cara, fucking buzzly, unvale, characterhub, refsheet, instagram (gags), you get the idea. Closest that I've liked is sheezy and I think sheezy has potential but it's still not quite there you know? It really seemed like the only way I could post my art in a way I truly like is on my own website. Another thing too is that many of these sites don't allow adult content or have restrictions on them and I am a normal adult man who likes gore and porn so that immediately detracts for me. I hope over time more artists make good personal sites, with RSS feeds that I can follow, please get an RSS feed.