Was trying to get back into drawing and I didn't completely hate it. Since the previous two things in the gallery were very practice stuff, kind of stuff that's definitely getting removed later and I'll probably be moving to a new section when I redesign the website, I also decided to give this it's own page. Good to show off the decent stuff. Definitely some issues here but I've grown to like it a bit more than when I first drew it and all my friends now like Roach, Lucy said "I hope good things happen to him" as a joke since obviously my friends all know the kind of stuff I wanna draw of my twinks.

Originally I was trying to draw more concept art of him I was gonna try to figure out more details with his design but I was getting frustrated because it really feels at times like I just don't know how to draw and I quickly lost motivation after getting this done. But yknow it's something and it's done.

Sometimes I think the me of late 2024 was right to be apprehensive of trying to change my art, I had been feeling pretty great and happy with my work at that point and now I just feel frustrated and depressed, still though when I think about it I don't really regret it. Even with this frustration I do think I'm closer to making the art I want to make now than before and I've developed more as a person since then as well through trying to get there and I'm much happier as the person I'm growing into being. Though it is hard to come to terms with the fact that it'll probably be another year or two before I'm close to where I want to be with my art. Calling myself a beginner would be dishonest I've been calling myself an artist since I was 8 and I clearly developed some skill over that time and yet because I've never really put in the work I'm doing now to improve my art I feel I'm a beginner in that aspect and I feel I can't quite call myself an intermediary artist, I'm somewhere between beginner and intermediary. I'm like new game+'ing art I guess and I have to remember it takes years to develop these skills. I think that's where part of my frustration comes from, I'm a beginner in training these skills but I have 18 years of experience so I feel more frustrated at my lack of growth.