I wanted to do head practice where I would attempt to stylize the head and such in a way try to connect what I've learned with the Asaro head to the way I've currently been drawing heads but uh as you can tell I got frustrated. In general I've been getting really frustrated lately depression, burnout, artblock, whatever you wanna call it I don't know I've never felt like this before. I've definitely mentioned it somewhat in previous pages of my art in the gallery yknow but it really started to hit to the point where I'd get so frustrated by my lack of drawing anything I like i'd give up and go lie in bed and cry. Hell if you go to the art archive you can see the day prior to this one I wanted to draw some gore cause I was like "i'm not drawing gore I want to draw gore I should just start drawing gore" and then I got so frustrated, got really depressed, and instead drew myself shooting myself in the head and then one of my friends saw it and got scared.

So I decided to take a week long break after I drew this, did it help? Eh. I don't know if I'll get over my frustration but right now I'm currently planning out getting back to the regular anatomy learning I was doing and figuring out future practice. Found this thing called the RoadRunner course so I might follow along with that though I'll make some edits and I'll be skipping over the shit that costs a bunch of money cause I'm poor and saving to move out. Of course I'll also be trying to do more play art, trying to draw my OCs and stuff I like yknow all work and no play makes jack a dull boy and is probably how I got to this point. I think at this point I gotta just try to force myself through my frustration, keep drawing and keep practicing and eventually I'll get there but try not to push myself too much yknow have video games and hang out with friends on standby to cheer myself up, distract the mind.

I don't have much to say about the actual picture, at some point I tried to redraw that headshot of Roach from his concept art and I didn't like how it looked and still don't but whatever. Tried a drawing of Periwinkle as well cause I felt I was doing a lot of sharp thin faces and I wanna be able to put some fat on some characters but also isn't very good. Yeah not much to say a lot of frustration maybe I'll wait til I've dont some style studies but I try doing that I don't know.